*Sigh* I have bad anxiety. I like to feel like I have total control over any situation and lately I have not felt that way at all. Chad is advancing in the Navy fast and is doing really well so now it looks like we are going to stay in. Two months ago if you would have asked, we would have told you we were going to be home(Nashville) by Summer of 2009, now it looks like we arent. I am a bit sad because I was looking forward to being closer to my family, Lauren, and TDF. If Chad makes E6 next March we are definitely in because it would be silly to leave. Chad has only been in for 4 years. He is thinking about putting in a package to become an Officer, so if he does that and gets chosen it looks like we are lifers. ... I dont mind it sometimes, but I am not looking forward to deployments and moving all the time. I dont like to move. If I could stay in one place for the rest of my life I would. The hassle of it gives me such anxiety. This is one element of my life that I have to give to God. Well I give all the elements of my life to the Lord, but this is one that stresses me so I have to tell the Lord to take control and work everything else out for us.
On a lighter note... for my nerves anyway!.. I am TOO excited about going to Boston this weekend. Its suppose to rain on Saturday, so that sucks, but Sunday is suppose to be nice. I'm hoping my friend Christina decides to meet us up there on Sunday. We are staying close to Bunker Hill. I will be taking TONS of pictures. I have some cute new clothes I'm going to wear and I finally got contacts so I dont have to just wear glasses all the time and I can wear sunglasses. Chad got glasses this week. It's weird seeing him with them on, but I really REALLY like them. He looks handsome and intelligent!
So the Lord is teaching me how to not be such a complainer. I tend to rant and rave about cleaning house, doing laundry, and doing the dishes. The other day when the laundry was about 3 loads backed up, I started complaining to myself and I asked the Lord why does the housework seem never ending? It was like He knocked me upside the head and answered me. He said 'Why are there dishes? Because you eat. Why is there laundry? Because you have been blessed with an abundance of clothes.' He is right, of course, but we are blessed and the housework is the evidence of our blessings. So now instead of complaining about doing the dishes or laundry, I'm just going to be thankful that the Lord has given us food to eat and clothes to wear!!!
2 comments:
Brittany, I LOVE your blogs!!! they really give me something fun to read and take my mind off of my life. Yes, military life is nerve wracking, but I try to think of it this way: You can always say you are married to a great, strong man who loves his country. You, yourself are one of the strongest women in the world, because it is just not a job for a hero, but his wife has to be a hero also. And the the tearful goodbyes are always met with the happiest and most thankful hellos! You will get used to the hard times and praise God for the happy ones! Remember this, You are never handed ANYTHING that God knows YOU CAN NOT handle! I live by that! You will be stronger, smarter, and more couragous than you ever thought after the nerve wracking times! I am always praying for you and Chad. And I hope you both have a great marriage full of happiness! Thanks for the blogs and I hope to see you sometime in Nashvegas:)
Hollye Morgan
That's awesome that Chad is getting promoted so quickly! It does make the decision making VERY hard though. Best of luck to you guys, I'm sure you'll be able to manage wonderfully! Home is where Honey is...ain't that the truth! I love reading your blog, BTW!
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