What a Weekend

This past weekend was a great one and also a sad one. I had a wonderful time with my parents. We went to Salem, Mass and Concord, Mass. We vast in the red, orange and yellow leaves, shopped at H&M and ate pumpkin EVERYTHING! We took tons of pictures and enjoyed being together. Laila loved having them here and I know the feeling was mutual. Mom and Dad love Laila so much. Laila loves them so much too. I cant seem to stop crying since they have left. I miss being with them so much and this weekend especially made me stop and savor every second with them. When I got the text message about Brandon's mom at 2:45 am, my heart broke and I couldnt get back to sleep. I just cant believe my other best friend lost his mother too this year. First Lauren in Jan, now him yesterday. It really made meet thankful that I was able to spend this weekend with them. I am trying not to let Chad see me cry because I know that when he does, he feels bad and starts talking about getting out of the Navy. I know he doesnt want to get out and if he did, it would be for me. I want so bad to live near my family. I think this past year has really hit me hard, you realize that we are only on this Earth for a short time. I tend to take for granted the time I spend with my family. I know everyone does. I took my time with my grandmother for granted and I regret it. This Christmas will be a year since she passed. I have missed not talking to her on the phone every couple of weeks. If I new my last time talking to her would be the first of Dec, I would have called lots and lots more. I just wish I could see Mom and Dad a lot more than about 15 days a year. I would love to have it all and have Chad, Laila, Mom, Dad and Deb with me all the time, but I know it's not possible right now. We had some great pictures from this weekend, I'll post some!